Wednesday, November 4, 2009

grizzly bear at the barbican

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Grizzly Bear and the London Symphony Orchestra played the Barbican on Halloween. The stage was beautiful and the performances were amazing. A magical evening where you leave wishing that every gig could be that good.

GRIZZLY BEAR ARE AMAZING.

This is southern point.

Click to see photos from the show.






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Tuesday, October 6, 2009

thom yorke - 'open the floodgates'

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I was pretty sure that I was totally in love with Thom Yorke's magnificant artistry and then I saw this video of a new song which includes him semi-berating people who talk during gigs. It was like falling in love all over again!

This song, 'Open the Floodgates', is excellent and my pick of the newies that he played at his recent Echoplex/Orpheum gigs.
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Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Stormtrooper 9/11

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Thursday, September 10, 2009

bert & ernie 'ante up'

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Tuesday, August 4, 2009

monsters of folk - girl from the north country

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The Monsters of Folk (Jim James, Conor Oberst, M.Ward and Mike Mogis) release their debut album on 9 September and I, for one, couldn't be more excited! They've already released three songs on iTunes (America) and they sound exactly like what you'd expect if you put these four musicians in a room together - and that is no bad thing!

Anyway, to whet your appetite here's a faithful and massively enjoyable cover of Dylan's "Girl From The North Country".
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Monday, July 27, 2009

the suge knight light...

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Friday, July 17, 2009

bon iver @ glastonbury

By all accounts Bon Iver delivered in their 3 Glastonbury performances but this one seems to have people talking. It's about half of the set from the Sunday afternoon (I think) and culminates in a great version of "Wolves".

Enjoy, it's beautiful.


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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

big fan trailer

new video

Patton Oswalt's stand up is excellent.

This movie is meant to be his 'Taxi Driver'.
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Thursday, July 9, 2009

awesome?

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jj

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Things that are known about jj:
  • they're on arguably the coolest record label around, Sweden's 'Sincerely Yours'
  • they're called jj
  • they've released two records - jj No 1 and jj No 2
Thing that I know about jj:
  • they've made a record (jj No 2) that is like crack in its moreishness
  • their song 'Ecstasy' contains the best extrapolation of Lil' Wayne's "Lollipop" known to man
  • any summer will be enhanced by this record
  • I already love them
If you like 'dreampop' - I'd never heard that term until the other day when reading an article describing Beach House as dreampop. If that's the case, I thought, then I love dreampop because Beach House are brilliant - then you'll enjoy this.


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Tuesday, June 30, 2009

the prodigy@glastonbury

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So Glastonbury is over for another year and what have we learned? That the BBC coverage was awful, that according to the Guardian Blur were the best headliners ever and that, as ever, it looked like a whole load of fun!

Although people would have you believe that Blur were the only thing to see on Sunday, I think I would've opted for The Prodigy... and judging by this video I wouldn't have regretted it - they look and sound brilliant!
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Monday, June 22, 2009

final glastonbury 09 post (til it's over)

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This is where my vote goes...

Have fun!
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kanye west, zach galifiankis and will oldham

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My love for all things Zach Galifianakis has recently returned - largely due to watching The Hangover. Now I could post a load of youtube videos highlighting how beautifully artful and free his comedy is, but instead I'll just post the video he made for Kanye West's "Can't Tell Me Nothing" (how had I forgotten about this?).

Apparently, he made it on the condition that he could do whatever he wanted and that Kanye wouldn't see it until after it had been edited. As a result it's brilliant - and features a hilariously bizarre appearance from Will Oldham (Bonnie "Prince" Billy).
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Thursday, June 18, 2009

mixtape for (alt) glastonbury

side a
Eagles of Death Metal (Saturday, Pyramid) - San Berdoo Sunburn
The Aliens (Sunday, Queen's Head) - Sunlamp Show
Animal Collective (Friday, Park) - My Girls
First Aid Kit (Saturday, Park) - Tiger Mountain Peasant Song
Low Anthem (Friday, Queen's Head & Saturday, Park) - Charlie Darwin

side b
Cold War Kids (Sunday, Park) - God, Make Up Your Mind
Micachu & The Shapes (Sunday, Park) - Golden Phone
Jesca Hoop (Sunday, Rabbit Hole) - Murder of Birds
Metric (Saturday, Other) - Help I'm Alive
Slow Club (Friday, Guardian Lounge) - I Was Unconscious, It Was A Dream

and here's a link to a .rar file of the entire tape

Going over the Glastonbury lineup this year doesn't fill one with a sense of artistic excellence and excitement; it's pretty dull stuff (I know Glastonbury is much more than just music!). However, there are a few highlights - Bon Iver, Neil Young, M Ward, Q Tip, Fleet Foxes and Jamie T to name pretty much all of them!

This tape is filled with some other artists that might be worth checking out (First Aid Kit, Micachu, Animal Collective) and a few that would be certainties in my book (Low Anthem, Eagles of Death Metal, Jesca Hoop, Cold War Kids).

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Monday, June 8, 2009

jay z - d.o.a. (death of auto-tune)

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Jay Z will release Blueprint 3 in September and I didn't think that, after his total destruction of Glastonbury and then hearing "Jockin' Jay Z (Dope Boy Fresh)" (an instant classic!), I could be more excited. I was wrong. It's not 'vintage' Jay Z in terms of hooks but in terms of subject and lyrics - it's great. You gotta love anyone who's gonna attack the way that, like, 80% of today's records are made.

Kanye said it was gonna be a real b-boy record and be the 'anti auto-tune'. Here's the proof. Play Loud.


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Wednesday, June 3, 2009

desiderata

Although I'd never encountered this piece, 'Desiderata', until last night my understanding is that it is really quite famous. I do know that, despite what it says, it wasn't discovered in a Baltimore church (though that would've been impressive!) but it is, to my mind, very good. Very simple. Very positive. Very soothing.

And it fuels my quasi-religious ferver!

Whilst it doesn't re-invent the wheel with what it says it is quite striking to see these things written out. Food for thought in our confusing times.

Click on the pic to see it clearly.
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Monday, June 1, 2009

more grizzly bear

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My love for Grizzly Bear currently knows no bounds and it's enhanced by seeing live performances like this. The thought that they can do justice to the beautiful and intricate recorded music that they produce makes me even more excited to see them live in August! Yay!

These videos are very good.


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Sunday, May 31, 2009

the wasp (chancer)

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Some people have all the fun - playing at Old Trafford and being interviewed Match of the Day style. Busy fucker!
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Tuesday, May 26, 2009

stop everything and listen to karen dalton

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Although I've read Dylan's "Chronicles, Volume 1" and Karen Dalton is mentioned in it I'd never encountered her until very recently (meaning yesterday!). All I can say is that, apart from my daily Grizzly Bear/Department of Eagles listening, I've been listening to her debut album "It's So hard To You Who's Gonna Love You The Best" almost non-stop and it's, frankly, astonishing.

Dylan described her having "a voice like Billie Holiday and played guitar like Jimmy Reed".

It's one of those times, like the first time you 'get' Leonard Cohen or Joy Division or Nick Drake, where you think why didn't I know this earlier? Would my life have been more complete with this in it?

So here's the title track and (I never do this) a link to the full album. It's brilliant. Now I must be off as I've just got her second record "In My Own Time". I can't wait.


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Monday, May 25, 2009

Pictures. And a poem by Bukowski.




Radio

strange eyes in my head
I'm the coward and the fool and the clown
and I listen to a man telling me that I can get a
restaurant guide and an expanding cultural events calendar

I'm just not here today
I don't want restaurants and expanding cultural events
I want an old shack in the hills
rent free
with enough to eat and drink until I die

Strange eyes in my head
strange ways

no chance



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Saturday, May 23, 2009

Two Great Music Videos..

Matt And Kim - Lessons Learned

The first time I saw this vid it got me. I believe the Police are real.




Moray McLaren - We Got Time

All in camera, the only editing used are the cuts. Impressive, if you ain't seen it before.


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Wednesday, May 20, 2009

holler, wild rose!

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Call it busy or call it lazy but whatever you call it - it's a new video.

Now, I would argue that this post does not come from a place of bias but I will acknowledge a soft spot for New Jersey's Holler, Wild Rose! (the punctuation can be a deal-breaker for some).

Whilst their debut album never really did capture how good a live band they are (you should still get it though - it's worth it for 'Captive Train' alone!) this video goes some way to indicating what, for me, they're all about.

This is the song that they take their name from and is their usual show-closer.

You still have to go to their show to feel the full My Bloody Valentine-esque sonic assault in all its glorious loudness though.
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Monday, May 18, 2009

maria bamford

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I think that, based on her three CD releases so far, Maria Bamford is one of my favourite comedians working the circuit today. She's quite strange, uses an array of voices and her jokes can be really rather theatrical.

The first video is to get a feel for what she does and the second video is from her new CD 'Unwanted Thoughts Syndrome' and is as good a satire of hack comedians (of any sex) as you'll see. Brilliant.


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Saturday, May 9, 2009

for the fanboys...

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Monday, May 4, 2009

wtf / brilliant

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There are no words...
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Friday, May 1, 2009

it's always sunny in philadelphia

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I'm not a massive fan of TV but there are a few worthwhile shows out there. This is one of them. The gang behind it may never top seasons 1 and 2 but the show has gone from a cult following to a mainstream audience on American TV without selling its soul.

It is without a doubt the riskiest comedy show on American TV which, whilst not saying much, does win it some points. Fans of Peep Show and the like will appreciate this: a classless and frank discussion of the mechanics of male homosexuality.
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Wednesday, April 29, 2009

prime minister's questions?

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Does anyone want to play spot the Tory MP in the rave video? As ridiculous as that sounds...
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Monday, April 27, 2009

glenn wool

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So I was checking today to see if Glenn Wool had returned from LA in the hope that he was doing shows in London again. Alas, he hasn't so I had to go and find this video. He starts off a little slow but once he hits the 4 minute mark he's absolutely on fire.

This guy is very funny indeed.
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Monday, April 20, 2009

sampled by... mixtape

side a
Sly & The Family Stone - Trip To Your Heart
(used in Mama Said Knock You Out by LL Cool J)
Brothers Johnson - Strawberry Letter 23
(used in Ms. Jackson by OutKast)
Gwen McCrae - Rockin' Chair
(used in Danger by Blahzay Blahzay)
Camille Yarborough - Take Yo' Praise
(used in Praise You by Fatboy Slim)
Mtume - Juicy Fruit
(used in Juicy by Notorious BIG)

side b
New Birth - Honey Bee
(used in Clan In Da Front by Wu-Tang Clan)
Leon Haywood - I Wanna Do Something Freaky With You
(used in Nuthin' But A "G" Thang by Dr. Dre)
Chaka Khan - Through The Fire
(used in Through The Wire by Kanye West)
The Charmels - As Long As I've Got You
(used in C.R.E.A.M by Wu-Tang Clan)
Bobby Byrd - I'm Not To Blame
(used in U Don't Know by Jay-Z)

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Thursday, April 16, 2009

dan rossen

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You may already know that the only way that I could love Grizzly Bear/Department of Eagles more was if they suddenly became Radiohead - obviously that isn't going to happen so I'll just have to be content with my huge man crush on all of them!

This is Dan Rossen (of both bands) covering JoJo's 'Too Little, Too Late' for the New Yorker's Valentine's Day event in DUMBO at the request of Grizzly Bear bandmate, and pop fanatic, Ed Droste.

It is pretty damn great. This'll be stuck in your head for days!
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Monday, April 13, 2009

(more) radiohead

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I have recently reacquainted myself with the glorious 'Kid A' album and in particular these two tracks. These videos are taken from their Saturday Night Live performance from around the time of the record's release and... well... just watch.

My oh my.




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Wednesday, April 8, 2009

democracy in action

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I think NWA said it best...
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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Tomorrow, a road trip...







"Did you feel anything?"

"Yes. Only for a couple of seconds but that was enough. Thank you."

Saw the 'Where The Wild Things Are' trailer for the first time today. I thought I might cry.
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Thursday, March 26, 2009

A London Poem

Saw this man perform not too long ago. Very good. This made me laugh.


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Wednesday, March 25, 2009

radiohead

old video

Just in case there was any doubt about how truly magnificent Radiohead are then watch this video.

It's old.

A fan passes out.

The re-start is amazing.
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Sigur Ros

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There is beauty in this world if you know where to look... and listen.

This is a new one from La Blogotheque and their Take-Away Shows series. Honestly, I spend way too much of my time re-watching some of the performances that they've captured.

Sigur Ros are nothing if not amazing and, despite the clientele of this old Parisian cafe being seemingly unimpressed, this is brilliant. Enjoy.
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009

random prose

an excerpt from 'Keep Calm and Carry On'The music washed over her as she stepped into the place. Outside was cold and filled with car horns, screeching breaks and steam rising from the roadside: but inside was a cocoon; an enclosure filled (too full?) with people chattering, drinking, laughing and dancing. She could hear that the music was coming from the far end of the long bar, in the back room, but had no idea how she was going to get there through the throngs of people. She also needed a drink.

She could feel the smile widening as she politely, but firmly, maneuvered herself to the bar. She was standing in a place that she always wished had existed but never experienced. Her small fantasy had come true and that had never happened before. A place so fully realized from the one she saw in her head that it was scary; as if someone had taken the blueprints from her dreaming sleep and built it. And now, somehow, her winding path had led her to it.

She felt intoxicated before her drink had even arrived. The rows of liquor behind the bar, the overworked but effortlessly cool and grizzled bar tender who didn’t seem to be in a rush but seemed to be doing everything anyway, the dark orange walls, low lighting and candles flickering everywhere made the bar seem new, familiar, foreign and welcoming all at once. She caught her reflection in the large mirror that she was facing, as she handed over her money for what seemed like the strongest Vodka Collins she’d ever tasted, and she was grinning like an idiot. Everyone’s going to think I’ve taken something she thought. Drink in hand she began to move through the packed bar toward the back room, with her arms raised to make the squeezing by strangers easier, and to provide much needed protection from potentially unruly hands, she caught a glimpse of her watch: her newly found friends would be here shortly she thought - leaving her enough time to continue to be wide-eyed and grinningly uncool by herself. Riding on a wave of smiles and "excuse me's" she made it to the end of the bar and to the small glass door surrounded by red drapes. A list of bands that she'd never heard of and their stage times was stuck dead centre. She tried to work out which band she could hear but the door swung open and a man clad head-to-toe in tight denim with a little sweat on his brow burst through holding a half empty bottle of beer and an unlit cigarette. He laughed as he briefly held the door open long enough for her to scuttle through and into the dark and loud of the back room.

She didn't know how, but she just knew that the room would be small and unlike the cavernous performance spaces that are usually attached to such small bars. It was tiny. And drenched in the unfamiliar and joyous sounds of whatever band were playing. Whoever they were, the small and tightly packed audience were rapt. She shuffled closer and watched the faces in the crowd smiling and singing softly along with music and felt herself begin to sway. She closed her eyes and listened. The harmonies coming at her from the stage were beautiful and sent her head spinning. Smiling, she thought of how she'd got here. Of how strange she now felt. Of this new world. Of the possibilities. Of the unknown.


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Monday, March 16, 2009

england team talk

There are few people more annoying than fat James Cordon. Yeah, I used fat. If that offends you then call me a "fatist", fatty. However, I'm loathe to totally categorize anyone in such 2D terms as an egotistical hype machine so, at times, I'll give him the benefit of the doubt. After all, Gavin & Stacy can be funny (Ruth Jones?). It is with this in mind that I post this video - from Comic Relief - as it's pretty funny: Cordon giving a team talk to the England football team.

It's funny 'cos it's (mostly very) true. Especially the Lampard bit.
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Sunday, March 15, 2009

A Passage From The Garaghon Memoirs



Bigger Not Better

Occasionally I would take stock of my life, closer inspection brought no real insights, there were good days and there were bad days, the sun would rise and the sun would set but in between I strove to see the beauty of the world around me..  Spring was my favourite time of the year because I didn't have to look too hard.  Life took matters into it's own hands and forced itself into the world; buds and blossom, slowly lengthening evenings, the strengthening sun, happiness spilling out onto the pavements like melted butter.  Try as some might, there was no escaping it and I embraced it like a much missed friend.
It was whilst I was gorging on this springtime feast that I began to realize that something was amiss.  The tight vibrant green and white twirls of the lily I was admiring were the first thing I noticed - they were just so big.  And the more I looked the bigger they became.  As I looked around I saw that it wasn't only the lily leaves, it was everything and the harder I looked, the larger it all appeared.  Bees the size of my fist knee high shrubs appeared to me as The Foinavon, delicate blooms magnified to triffid proportions.
A kernel of fear unfurled slowly in the pit of my stomach.  What was happening to me?  I looked down at my hands and they were no longer mine, they were the hands of a giantess, too big to belong in my world.  I recognized them though.  The folds and creases, the long deep head line, the forked heart line dotted with islands, the scar on my right forefinger - a lesson in patience that I'd failed to learn.  These were my hands, seen through my eyes.  I slammed them shut.
And I kept hem that way for a long time - two days - so afraid was I of what I might see when I opened them.  Floating in the darkness I felt serene.  In my mind's eye I could feel the world deflate, as if emitting as enormous sigh, and even though I couldn't see it, I knew that everything had returned to its original size.
I opened my eyes and everything was as it was.  My heart sang with relief.  It had seemed so real, bigger than reality but maybe it had just been my fertile imagination  I held tightly on to this hope.
It soon became clear that it was not my imagination, at the oddest of times and without warning the world would suddenly loom large.  And as time passed large became larger, like the language books my sister and I had loved so much as children, large ballooned to larger but where largest lay I could not conceive.
I began to rest my vision for weeks at a time but still the world continued to grow, the speed and frequency with which these episodes occurred was such that I finally resolved to take action.  Inaction, perhaps, is a more accurate description.  I closed my eyes ans this time they stayed closed.  Even as i felt the world shrink, and although I knew that everything had reverted to its actual size, I clamped my lids closer together.  I knew that I only had a limited number of sights left to see and I didn't want to waste them.
In the interim i replayed all that I had ever seen, concentrating as never before, noticing things that at some point passed me by.  Looking, watching, seeing...
Meanwhile, I pondered over what my final optical delights might be with almost religious fervour.  Waves of darkness lapped against my shores as I agonized over what was worthy enough to devote my fading powers of sight upon.  But my musings were as worthless as the ideas they produced, animals facing extinction, great works of art, what remained of the seven wonders...  These things meant nothing to me.
And though some might say that my actions were rash, impetuous, even foolish, I saw what I cherished the most.  The smile of a friend as we laughed together, her eyes closed in mirth, unaware that I was watching her lose herself in the joy of our shared moment.  Our hands clasped together as we shook with delight, the joke was shared but the moment was all mine.  I saw so much.  The sun setting, gently drifting snow, the iridescent rainbow of petrol in bubbles, the raging ocean, my Mother's tears, a leafy glade bathed in shafts of sunlight, a door slammed in my face, blood pumping on to the tarmac, snatches - like snapshots framed in my heart - of my brother's wedding day, the sunrise, spilt milk, the face of the man I mistook for the love of my life, a storm of cherry blossom raining down on me.  All these things i allowed myself and for each one of them I was eternally grateful.
I could sense that the world was continuing to expand, even behind my tightly locked lids, and I knew that the time had come to close my eyes for good.  But there was one more sight that I wished to see, someone that I had not seen for the longest time.
I dressed with care; my friends described my clothes to me in minute detail, my favourites dictated not by colour or comfort but by how well I thought that they suited me.  And there I was, just the same as i remembered.  And it was so good to see me again, to see that I was still me, that my memories hadn't lied.
So I stood before my reflection, drinking me in until I was in danger of drowning, until I became too big for my eyes to see, the world expanding beyond my comprehension.  And, without regret, I brought my lashes together for the final time.  I needed to see no more.  I held more than enough in my head, and in my mind's eye, it was beautiful to behold.


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Saturday, March 14, 2009

A £2000 unfinished deal...


It's not great play Roland, get off the sofa.  I like your new picture.




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mantra


completion not competition.

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Thursday, March 12, 2009

the daily show

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The Daily Show is flat-out brilliant for many reasons; the number one reason being Jon Stewart. This is five minutes of funny, clever, incisive and dumb satirical comedy.

The squares who said The Daily Show wouldn't be funny with a Democratic President are very very wrong.
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Tuesday, March 10, 2009

lazy sunday

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With last years resurgence of Saturday Night Live and the release of The Lonely Island's comedy album "Incredibad" I was reminded of where it all began. Tracks like the Justin Timberlake featuring "Dick In A Box", "On A Boat" (with T-Pain), and "Jizz In My Pants" all accurately lampoon the genres that they are based on and have unusually high prodoction values for such throwaway gags. However, my favourite, and the one that kicked it all off is "Lazy Sunday". It's a little more subtle than the songs mentioned and the juxtaposition of middle-class movie going and slamming Beastie Boys-style hip-hop will get me every time!

And just for kicks here's the TV version of "Natalie's Rap" (believe it or not I think it's funnier than unedited one).





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Monday, March 9, 2009

little boots

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I've already posted Kid Cudi's video for Day 'N' Night on this very blog and offered the opinion that he's going to be huge this year. I'm really not sure that I could dig Cudi any more than I do right now!

Now, in case you didn't or don't believe me or value Victoria Hesketh's (Little Boots) opinion over mine then here's her quiet take on his lyrically sombre tune. Incidentally, Little Boots is tipped to be big this year too and though I don't really care too much about that I am enjoying this.
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Friday, March 6, 2009

30 rock

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I have recently become reacquainted and thus addicted to 30 Rock. Yes it's quite gentle but it has subtlety that you don't find in most network sitcoms. It's also plainly obvious that Tina Fey is influenced by some good British comedy (notably The Office).

You can guarantee that there's at least one line in every episode that is so brilliantly conceived and delivered that it's worth watching just for that. This is that line from this weeks episode. Simple, yes, but "like a bastard" is rarely, if ever, used this well on US TV.
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Thursday, March 5, 2009

grizzly bear

almost new video


If Radiohead didn't exist then you'd be watching the greatest band in the world right now... the mighty Grizzly Bear. Thankfully, art isn't a competition so we can just sit back and enjoy the myriad talents of some great musicians.

If you don't own "Yellow House" then you should probably stop reading this and head to your local music emporium and purchase it (or get it from iTunes if you're lazy like me). Alternatively you could search for their new album "Veckatimest" as it recently leaked (I condone no such behaviour!) as this is where these songs come from. It is, all bias aside, magnificent.

You're watching the band of 2009.


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Wednesday, March 4, 2009

jon brion - here we go

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"If God exists then the pop music he makes sounds like Jon Brion"

To the best of my knowledge nobody has actually ever said that but believe me when I say that I have thought it on many an occasion!

You may not know the name Jon Brion but I guarantee that you have heard Jon Brion. If you've seen "Magnolia", "Punch-Drunk Love" or "I ♥ Huckabees" or listened to Kanye West's "Late Registration", Rufus Wainwright, Fiona Apple, Rhett Miller or Spoon then you're more than familiar with what he sounds like and how he does things.

His style is all very (early period) Beatles-y and melodic and poptastic but that doesn't stop him from writing some insightful and truly beautiful songs. This one is from a similarly insightful and beautiful (and quirky) movie, the aforementioned "Punch-Drunk Love".


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random prose

an excerpt from 'Twickenham Twickenham'

Gabe dropped to the floor, hard, clutching his head as the attack took hold. What felt like a slice of his brain was burning and scorching and searing with a pain that seemed impossible for him to bear. Sweating and writhing on the kitchen floor of his apartment he kicked out; looking for anything to alleviate this terror or deflect his attention away from the fact that he thought the inner workings of his skull were about to combust. He struck the leg of his cheap wooden kitchen table; it immediately buckled and fell, seemingly in slow motion, bringing with it the cup, plate and New York Times that he'd been using only moments before. Although his vision was dimming he managed to dodge the debris by thrashing and rolling to the corner of the room where he curled up against the old brown refrigerator that guarded the door to the living room. He was weakening now and felt like he was going to pass out from the pain. This would be welcome and he inwardly begged for it. His legs were still moving as his vision finally gave out. There was only darkness and white-hot pain now. Sleep would surely come now he thought. Then it happened. Images invaded his head, piling themselves on one another.

A car. More cars. A line of them. All black. And strange looking people. Flags. People taking photos. People laughing. Smoke. There's a man waving. People cheering. A loud noise. And light. Confusion. Screaming. Crying. Law enforcement are everywhere. More screaming. And running. Panic. Panic. Panic. Blood and sadness. And pain. Much pain.

It was dark when Gabe woke. His t-shirt was soaked in sweat and his kitchen looked as though a small war had occurred during his lapse of consciousness. He propped himself up against his refrigerator and sat, almost afraid to move, and tried to take stock of what had just happened.

What was happening? He was obviously ill or crazy or dying or...

Did he have an aneurysm?

Is this how they worked? Google would have the answer.

What were the images about? They had the familiarity of memories but they were too broken and strange and he was sure he hadn't even been born when that last one took place.

Why did he feel completely normal now? He'd just had some kind of trauma-filled attack yet his body felt fine. He felt good. His only problem was the worry of not knowing what was happening to him or when it would happen again. I would happen again.

After all, this wasn't the first time that it had happened.

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Sunday, February 22, 2009


You've gone loco, I shouted and wow it felt good.  A light flicked on in a house across the street.  You've gone fucking loco, I shouted again.  The monster began to turn so I ran back inside.  

Once indoors I loaded my wine glass and retired to the safety of the sofa.  My boyfriend asked if I was happy with myself and I told him that I was, very happy.

I switched on the Playstation and went to pick up a controller but neither were in their usual spot.  Where the fuck are the controllers? I asked.  I don't know, how should I know? he replied.  Come on please, I'm not in the mood for this right now I told him, but it was clear I had hit a brick wall.  He smirked and shrugged his shoulders so I gave up and walked away.  Where are you going?  To bed, I called back.  Oh come on, don't be like that, here, here's your stupid controller.  I heard it hit the living room floor.  It's too late.  I'm fucked off now, I said to myself as I climbed the stairs.


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KiD CuDi

new video


Kid Cudi as just released a new video for his track "Day N Night" and it's pretty good. I'm so pleased that they've done this after that awful Crookers remix was released a little while ago; I thought he was going to be packaged as a dancey-er version of Kanye but thankfully they've opted to have him just be an emcee.

This kid is going to be big.
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Thursday, February 19, 2009

a serial short story, chapter one





This is the first chapter of a long-ish short story that I'm going to publish here. It's not written yet, so I can't promise you how regularly, or quickly, it will be finished. All I can promise is that new chapters will appear here as soon as I write them. It's a whimsical little story, different from most of the other stuff I've written. Click Read more... to see the whole thing.


Chapter One

"You know she doesn't care to talk to you James," said Lucia. The tiny Dominican woman who cleaned his Mother's house spoke softly, but in a voice tinged with reproach. He shouldn't be calling; the unspoken message was clear.
"I know that," James replied, lighting a new cigarette from the smouldering end of the one he had just finished. "I wouldn't call unless it was important. Can you tell her that?"
"I'll tell her," Lucia confirmed. "When she wakes up, I surely will."
James thanked her and hung up. He had not expected the call to go differently, but frustration still boiled up inside him. It was nine years since he had spoken to his mother, and it could easily be nine more until they spoke again.
Although that's not really an option any more, is it? This thought popped into his mind, unbidden, and he drew hard on his cigarette.
The letter lay on the table in front of him.
He resisted the urge to read it again, no longer sure that the words would magically rearrange themselves, as he had been the first thirty or forty times he read it; that the letter was the key prop in a cosmic practical joke that had now worn thin.

The second call he made was to his agent, announcing his retirement.
At first the voice on the other end was amused, then incredulous, then, as James explained what had happened, simultaneously furious and upset.
"What are you going to do?" asked the voice, which belonged to a small, balding middle-aged man called Jacob Renstein.
James told him he didn't know. But he did; he had known since finishing reading the letter for the first time. Had known immediately.
"What am I going to do?"
James said he didn't know that, either, and this time he was telling the truth.
"I'm going to have to tell everyone you've worked with in the last six months. There's going to be panic. There's no way I can keep this out of the papers."
"I know that."
"You're going to be a pariah."
"Thanks for that. Really."
"It's important that you realise how bad this is going to be. It's my job to make sure you do. Was my job, at least."
Tears welled up in the corners of James' eyes for the first time since he had opened the letter, more than an hour earlier.
"I'll do what I can," he continued. "I'll manage this as much as possible."
"I know you will," James said, around a lump in his throat. "Thanks for everything, Jacob. I'm going to go now. OK?"
"Take care James," said his agent. His voice was thick, and it sounded as though he too was struggling to keep his emotions in check. "Take care of yourself."
There was a click, and the line went dead.

The third call was to his landlord, giving his notice on the quiet apartment he had lived in for the last three years. The small complex sat between Ocean and Neilson, three rows of duplexes around a long, narrow pool. He had liked living there; the apartment was one of the few things he was going to miss.
He packed a small bag of clothes, a spare pair of trainers, and the small wooden box he kept in his bedside table. The clothes he threw into the bag, not caring if they were folded, or even whether they were dirty or clean, but the box he placed in carefully, wrapped in an old USAF T-shirt.
James stood on the mat outside his apartment and locked the front door behind him. He walked quickly past the pool and to the small parking lot in front of the complex, opened the trunk of his battered Mustang, threw the bag inside, then opened the door and slid behind the wheel. He turned the ignition and the engine grumbled into life. Through the rear-view mirror he stole a last look at his home, then put the car into drive and rolled out onto Ocean Avenue.

Two hours later he was on I-40, heading east.

Chapter 2 will follow at some point.

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Monday, February 9, 2009

The most fun I've had all day




As I stood and stared at the soup that was on special offer I had a mild craving for a cigarette.  A gentle prod out of nowhere.  Less common now, it felt good that I could accept it, ignore it and move on.  Cock-a-leekie, wild mushroom, pea and leek chowder.  To hell with it I thought.  I'll just have beans on toast, I've got beans and bread at home.  Easier and cheaper.  What a waste of time.  I could've just stayed in bed.  I called to my girlfriend who was flicking through the newspapers and together we walked out.

As we approached our flat she asked if I had my keys.  'No' I said.  'What?' she replied with some alarm.  'No I didn't bring my keys.  You told me you had yours'.  She looked furious, stood still in the middle of the pavement.  'Are you joking?' she asked.  'Yes.  Yes I'm joking' I said with an amused sigh.  She shook her head and called me a dick as we continued towards our front door.  



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